Jealousy, that green-eyed monster! Day 57
For years now, I've thought that we need a new word for jealousy. For the type of jealousy that isn't mean. This morning Walkabout and I were talking about a sprightly 72 year old called Ivor, who jumps up on the Temple roof to fix stuff. Last time I saw him he had a head torch and walking boots on ready to take his girlfriend on a night walk through the woods. I remember feeling 'jealous' of his girlfriend. I wanted Walkabout to take me on a night walk too. Of course, I have my own head torch and legs and can take myself out. Walkabout even gave me a head torch for my fiftieth birthday. (I know! My sister in-law got a trip to Antigua!) Plus, a few months later, during the first lockdown when I was shacked up with the monks and not allowed off the priory grounds, we did go on nightly walks. But that's the sort of 'jealousy' I mean.
Thinking about it this morning, I remembered that when I first discovered magic, I had an urgent desire to have my own successful act.There were two established female magicians working the clubs. I used to look through the listings each week to see where they were performing. I remember not liking the feeling I got when I saw that they had great shows and were busy. I also remember reading a book that explained that we can see jealousy as a signpost, showing us that what we are jealous of is simply the direction we would like to go ourselves. This changed everything. Instead of feeling mean and inadequate when I saw someone that had or did something I wanted, I welcomed it as an inspiration and motivation. It meant I could thank them mentally for inspiring me, for being a role model, for showing the way and then get to work to get there myself.
We figured out that a better word would be 'inspired.'
Right now, I am 'inspired' by popular speakers and authors. Because that's what I think I would enjoy. Travelling the world, or even staying home right now, sharing my ideas with the world would be fun and satisfying. I'm listening to Gabby Bernstein read The Universe Has Your Back on Audible. I rather fancy a career like hers with added magic and showbiz!
I'm off to the post office now (with a bit of a prior bike ride through a few country villages) to post some more signed copies of Spun Into Gold. Only a few, six this week to be honest, but I'm on my way, going in the right direction. Inspired.
Walkabout says that this is why the Buddhists said that 'Rejoicing' is so important. Apparently, when you rejoice in someone else's good fortune, you create the causes to have the same. My favourite spiritual teacher Abraham Hicks says the same. They say, you cannot attract good fortune to you when you resent others having it. Conversely, when you are happy that someone is enjoying something you'd like, you are getting near having it yourself. Makes sense.
But you know the biggest pro of feeling inspired rather than jealous? It feels sooooo good!
The other thing that feels good is to move.
Got my bike, Spring is in the air, I'm going to move!
Have a lovely day!
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